For last two weeks I am trying to upgrade to a new version of myself.
I was confronted with opinion that I am the worst person as to handle other human being (as well in private or corpo life).
Strange as it may sound it was not the first signs of lighting. Other thing that it was brought to me with some examples and as such critic was upgraded and shaped into constructive rather than destructive.
As I am aware of such my behaviour it is nothing new to me, but this time it created rather great pressure on myself. Now not trying to conceal mistake and misbehaviour on my way to become a social animal.
I was sure that I need to start something new in clean environment but I realized that I was under false impression. Without changing my attitude my starting fresh will fail even faster.
Here and from about 14 days I am building new me. Just I am not sure what will come from this change.
The worst part of it is that noone is supporting me in such upgrade, and with now one holding my hand it is the most scary thing to do. But something that has to be done.
poniedziałek, 31 marca 2014
New-Old Beginning
After a very strange weekend. Weekend of confusions, frustrations, anger management and disapearing of illusions. I was struck by idea of sensless time consuming on searching through oceans of desperation which is called by most of us WWWWorld.
Today I was told by one of my closest friends that he feels empty and deprived of meaning in his life. He turned 40 and as standing on this crossroads he realized that his life went completly different from the way he was planning it. He feels like nothing has changed for a long time now, and he sees completly no signs of that changing anyway in future.
Desperation? No Realistic thinking.
Should we do something about such thougths? As always giving up is the worst man can do.
So in order to find myself a reason and some clear milestones I am starting to create my own Bucket List. Bucket List connected to so different sides of life that it fraighten even myself, but beware!
The other thing is to deal with my own life on a short time track.
Start to develop myself, try to be more systematic and not to give up to any excuses man uses in order to avoid actions which can deprive me of my own quiet vegetation. No more Stay at home dad!
Starting now.
Today I was told by one of my closest friends that he feels empty and deprived of meaning in his life. He turned 40 and as standing on this crossroads he realized that his life went completly different from the way he was planning it. He feels like nothing has changed for a long time now, and he sees completly no signs of that changing anyway in future.
Desperation? No Realistic thinking.
Should we do something about such thougths? As always giving up is the worst man can do.
So in order to find myself a reason and some clear milestones I am starting to create my own Bucket List. Bucket List connected to so different sides of life that it fraighten even myself, but beware!
The other thing is to deal with my own life on a short time track.
Start to develop myself, try to be more systematic and not to give up to any excuses man uses in order to avoid actions which can deprive me of my own quiet vegetation. No more Stay at home dad!
Starting now.
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