Stay the f...k away

 Staying away - is something the most difficult part - staying away from problems, topics that are not assigned to us - especially if we feel very strongly they should be assigned to us, or we at least should be in the loop.

This is the problme we sometimes do meet, encounter - face... how to make sure we do not care that we are being omited by pass, etc...

I know i should not care - but sometimes it is just hard. Will keep strugling. One time i am winning sometimes i am loosing (most of the time)

Life seems like a Sinusoid ...

 it seems that i cannot catch a break - any time something is going up - and turning positive - another thing is blowing in my face. 

It is also like no matter what i would do - the outcome would be the same.

And here is the golden rule - "do not give a shit"... patience and humility - is the way to go - finding something else to do outside of work - this is the way to go.

Just before my PTO - i had already started the positive WoW - adding trainings/language learning etc - and it worked fine. I was able to do something outside office hours - i was starting to feel positive change - but the hollidays have turned everything into shit - now i am just starting to get back - and i feel positive again - becasue it seems to work.

I again have hope!